32 Weeks

So far it has been another uneventful week. I had another doctors appointment on Monday and we set a tentitive date of 11/27 for the c-section. We will confirm it at my next appointment on the 2nd when she has her final calendar for the month. I will be 37.5 weeks pregnant at the time but she assures me that Izzy will be ready to make her debut! As the days get closer I find myself getting a little more nervous about being a mom to 2 kids. I know that once she gets here I will just fall into the role but for some reason right now it just seems a little daunting especially because we have no family close by. I still worry everyday about her and feel like I am going to loose her. I know my chances of losing her now (in utero) are slim and even slimmer if she were to be born early, but I just can't shake the feeling. My NSTs twice a week have helped to ease my mind a little bit. She moves around consistently which is reassuring but like I said, I just can't get that horrible feeling out of my head! This is my last pregnancy so I would like to try to enjoy every minute of it but I can't...I just want her out and in my arms. Soon enough I guess, until then I need to enjoy the little man that we have already been blessed with and try to prepare him for the upcoming arrival of his little sister!